I got so much feelings, I could fill a whole city

Do you have something, something left deep under your skin Is there something scratching and aching from the within Are you hiding thoughts, because they might conquer your world Did you drown something to keep the water still Are you ill Right under the perfect facade Is there a hole you desperately try to fill Every morning, telling yourself in front of the mirror that it’s alright You’ll just have to fight for one more night To keep it all in line

A fresh start hides right under my skin Peeling like a snake, the bad comes from within Should never forget that even in volatile times My best task was always to act like it’s all in line I can always be so good, even with poison as my blood When red‘s drippin’, drippin’, it always looks like mud Beautiful is fragile, but also hard like ice cold stone And the greatest minds grew up alone, so I’ll get myself together for 24k gold and a skin that I won’t have to cast off Cause I am so sick of feeling lost

Would you like to run away? And that's exactly what he said Want to make it to the cay? And I think he's gone mad but Maybe that's the magic everyones talking' about He's dangerous and already over the crowd Makes the water split And his fire could never burn out He's a freedom symbol and that's what it's all about Dancing through a star full night And I never knew what he was feeding from But he's burning light Body full of electricity Never seen such a free facility But I knew how everyone is right It shined too bright If you leave the prince, then you'll have to pay the price Remember first meeting her Standing in ovation Selfish, this girl is a nation Fire in her eyes and still Thought she could be the salvation Always up for potation And I guess She's the definition Of a rendition for ambition But this girl's drama will lead to opposition Drivin' up to far Opened up her heart Shipping for the stars ...

My idols are skinny as a stick Everywhere are bones sticking out of it and My idols are all super depressed And at least 10 years dead cause Cocaine is a dangerous thing But it makes so sarcastic, it is a dream And I love all the black and white that turns into blue When I’m so high and drunk and no-one knows what I’m going through My idols are all super rich But there are broken so they get nothing outta it My idols are all dressed black like pitch And at least wear 10 scars cause Money is a bad bitch And the biggest problem is, I am so in love with it And I love all the lies and fights that turn into success When i’m so high and restless and no-one knows that I’ll die for the rest

To me it really seems like most people are not even close to know what anorexia means.                                                                       For most it’s a mental illness, for many not even that, it’s more like being trendy enough to wear size 0.                                                          I’ll tell you, as one of the 85% that survive this illness what it really means.  It means deciding every day, for the rest of your life, to die. Not like a suicidal person that, after years, comes to the point to kill themselves, or like a murderer to have a day where you finally hate someone so much from the bottom of your heart that you come to ...